Update

Well....hmm what to say what to say LOL...I am happy at present. I am seeing someone that I care about a lot and not sure where it will lead but I am willing to ride the wave till I get to the end. God is faithful in all things. It amazes me at times just how much he cares about us and how good he is to us even tho we are so bad to him. I am blessed to be able to know the truth of God.

A light at the end of the tunnel...

I see it. I see the light at the end of the tunnel. I see myself slowly coming out of the muck. So to update you all on what’s happening now. God has worked a miracle as only he can. The man has not walked away, but there is a definite understanding that we will never ever be more the friends...that he is not who God has for me. I had him read these blogs in hope that he would understand and in some ways he did. So we are friends and nothing more which is a good thing. God has called me to witness to him. And me just being me and being completely honest with him why "we" would never be I know is a witness to him. Gods going to do something in his life, I know it! I am slowly coming to a different prospective on how I need to think in regards to the "future" in it entirety. It doesn’t matter what I want or what desires God has put there I have to follow him even if that means being single for the rest of my life.... Don’t get me wrong I have not grasped this yet...I am trying to let it take me over but it scares me to give up hope. I feel if I give up hope I lose everything...but hey with God all things are possible!