Happiness...

Happiness....This has been something I have struggled with lately. Happiness....I feel like I am surround by good things and still I am not happy. I have a nice place to live, I have friends that care a whole lot about me, I have an awesome job...I have I have I have BUT I don't always FEEL happy. I think happy is just that...a feeling...feeling at times are things we CHOOSE. We have complete control of our lives. We choose what we want to do and when we want to do those things. We DO have the control. I look at some people who I see as have everything. They have a family, job, house, fun all those things but they will tell you that they aren't happy. Makes me wonder well will I ever be happy then? I think yes...you know why? I choose to look at those things around me and BE happy with those things. I choose to make things different when I am not happy. I fight depression all the time....but my pastor said something in a sermon one day that I have used to this day. When depression comes knocking on my door. I open the door and laugh in its face....Yes I literally laugh out loud. HA HA HA HA HA HA HA sound crazy doesn't it? BUT it makes a bigger difference then you think. Happiness is a choice you make....happiness is a state of mind and being content with what you have. Happiness is what you make out it!! Life isn't easy. We have bills to pay, mouths to feed, bodies to clothe, less fortunate then ourselves to help. But what it all boils down to is how you feel about yourself. Choosing to be happy. Choosing to know we are all humans....we are all gonna make mistakes. And God doesn't make you into something amazing.....you choose the path you walk down...HE only give you the choices that you ultimately make....sure we have screwed up in life....but so have I and honestly who hasn't? You just who you are, amazing! Look at your life and all the amazing things in it. No one failed. You tripped, you feel, now get back up...brush the dust, the blood and the tears away and walk tall and proud. One thing that we must all learn is NO ONE IS PERFECT. They may seem perfect when you are on the outside looking in but I am sure if you were ever able to get into their head you would see they struggle with just as much if not more then you do.....let go of what you DID and walk into what you are gonna do. Who cares about the past anyways....the past is the past for a reason....