How bad do I want this?

This is a question that is going thru my head. How bad do I want to get healthy? How bad do I want to lose weight? How bad do I want to go snow boarding? How bad do I want it? I have went to a nutritionist. Paid $200 in fact but have I stopped eating like I do. A little! A little?!?!? I paid $200 and all i changed my habits so far is a little?!?!?!? So stupid!! I waste money. I waste time. I waste life. How bad do I want it? I want it and I am going to do it! I will I will I will I will!!!!