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Today is a day.....a day I dont know how to explain. My life is good for the most part it really really is....but why oh why cant I just be happy? I dont have a want of possesions I have a want of a man. Someone to share my life with....someone to have kids with. SO many people tell me you are so great. You have so much going for you...blah blah blah but if that was all so true where is this mysterious man who is gonna see me for who I am? WHERE IS HE? Are there any men left out there that are good? That dont cheat...that want me and ONLY me? That Love God first and fore most? When is it my turn? Ya I am in a hole right now. I deep black one....I will pull out of it but right now its swallowing me!